so i know its been a while. the last time i posted i was pissed. badly. but im a little better. im still a little ticked but i can hold it in now. i can leave it inside me instead of having to tell anybody.
i still like my bestie. but im mad at him right now. he knows. and hes not doing anything about it. oh well, its his fault. if he doesnt want to know whats wrong. fine. whatever. i dont care anymore. but of course i do. im just saying that.
i like this guy in my new school. its not Ben. its someone else loll. oh well.
SO ANYWHO.
im decorating my house for Halloween today :D im SO excited! i LOVE Halloween. its just after Christmas. but i love Halloween so much! candy Candy CANDY!!! YAY!! :D i also get to see all the little kids costumes. they're so cute :)
anywayz im hungry. and i have LOADS of homework to do +o(
ill keep you posted
yours truly
Sunday, October 25, 2009
Tuesday, October 13, 2009
sorry about that
im pissed. very pissed.
i want to hit something. badly. seriously. im not joking. if i dont type this i think i just might.
you know what i hate? boys. not in general just the frikin millions that arent curious. im serious. when they ask you whats wrong and you say nothing and they know its not nothing. or when you answer im just pissed right now. you know what they say? okay. thats it. they jsut drop it. my god!! im a girl!! a freakin girl!! i like people being curious aobut what is going on in my life. im pissed. they just leave it at the most broadest answer. im done. thats it. if another boy does that to me i might snap.
im naturally curious. im curious about their lives. and they like it that i want to know whats going on with tehm. and do tehy do the same? NO!! OMFREAKIN GOD!!!! I JUST GET SO ANGRY! im not joking. im being childish oyu may think. but ive been living with this since kindergarten and i cant take it anymore.. anymore!!!
im going to hurt myself being so mad. i swear to god!! i cant beleive im so ticked about this!! its insane how freakin ticked i am!!!... ARGGGGG!!!!!!!!!!!
..............................................OMG!!
i cant do it... i want to cry im so pissed!
screw you!!
not you.. but them
yours truly
i want to hit something. badly. seriously. im not joking. if i dont type this i think i just might.
you know what i hate? boys. not in general just the frikin millions that arent curious. im serious. when they ask you whats wrong and you say nothing and they know its not nothing. or when you answer im just pissed right now. you know what they say? okay. thats it. they jsut drop it. my god!! im a girl!! a freakin girl!! i like people being curious aobut what is going on in my life. im pissed. they just leave it at the most broadest answer. im done. thats it. if another boy does that to me i might snap.
im naturally curious. im curious about their lives. and they like it that i want to know whats going on with tehm. and do tehy do the same? NO!! OMFREAKIN GOD!!!! I JUST GET SO ANGRY! im not joking. im being childish oyu may think. but ive been living with this since kindergarten and i cant take it anymore.. anymore!!!
im going to hurt myself being so mad. i swear to god!! i cant beleive im so ticked about this!! its insane how freakin ticked i am!!!... ARGGGGG!!!!!!!!!!!
..............................................OMG!!
i cant do it... i want to cry im so pissed!
screw you!!
not you.. but them
yours truly
$%#& *!@
OMFG!!!
SCREW YOU!!
i hate you...
i wish you would just stop screwing with my emotions..
i thought i had gotten rid of you once and for all...
but no..
you had to come back!!!!
...$%@& you..
SCREW YOU!!
i hate you...
i wish you would just stop screwing with my emotions..
i thought i had gotten rid of you once and for all...
but no..
you had to come back!!!!
...$%@& you..
Sunday, October 11, 2009
i know its late..
i just had to tell someone.
i realized today something very important about me. i figured out today why i cant look at myself as 'pretty'.
shen someone compliments me on my looks i am able to say thank you so much and mean it. i dont want to be one of those girls who says thanks. i know. because they dont mean it. they dont care. thats because they know that guys want them. that they can wear a low top and have guys looking at them all the time. with me. i like the fact that if someone compliments me i can take it as a compliment. im not snooty in any way because i dontlook at myself as pretty. dont get me wrong, i can look in the mirror and point out alot of good points. but i dont look in the mirror and go of course im pretty. girls who think like that play with boys emotions, hell! they play with boys in general. with me, i can love. i can look at one guy and say i love you. and for sure mean it. girls who play with boys never mean it, and rarely say it. because they want6 to stay single. be able to play with boys, have fun. but they will never know what its like to love, and to be loved for who they really are. boys only fall for their looks. not their snottiness. i, at least, can say if a boy falls for me. its for me.
yours truly
i realized today something very important about me. i figured out today why i cant look at myself as 'pretty'.
shen someone compliments me on my looks i am able to say thank you so much and mean it. i dont want to be one of those girls who says thanks. i know. because they dont mean it. they dont care. thats because they know that guys want them. that they can wear a low top and have guys looking at them all the time. with me. i like the fact that if someone compliments me i can take it as a compliment. im not snooty in any way because i dontlook at myself as pretty. dont get me wrong, i can look in the mirror and point out alot of good points. but i dont look in the mirror and go of course im pretty. girls who think like that play with boys emotions, hell! they play with boys in general. with me, i can love. i can look at one guy and say i love you. and for sure mean it. girls who play with boys never mean it, and rarely say it. because they want6 to stay single. be able to play with boys, have fun. but they will never know what its like to love, and to be loved for who they really are. boys only fall for their looks. not their snottiness. i, at least, can say if a boy falls for me. its for me.
yours truly
Saturday, October 10, 2009
alright
ive really been into an artsy mood lately. i have an arts and crafts class at my school and i just keep wanting to make more stuff.
so my parents 25 anniversary is coming up on Thanksgiving on monday. i made them an origami heart for a card ( http://www.ehow.com/how_2061320_fold-origami-heart.html ) and i made them a star basket ( http://www.origami-usa.org/files/atsushi-starbasket.pdf ) filled with tiny 3D hearts ( http://www.ehow.com/how_4862165_small-origami-d-heart.html ) all made out of oragami :)
it took me forEVER!! but oh well. it looks good.
thats it for now
ill keep you posted
yours truly
so my parents 25 anniversary is coming up on Thanksgiving on monday. i made them an origami heart for a card ( http://www.ehow.com/how_2061320_fold-origami-heart.html ) and i made them a star basket ( http://www.origami-usa.org/files/atsushi-starbasket.pdf ) filled with tiny 3D hearts ( http://www.ehow.com/how_4862165_small-origami-d-heart.html ) all made out of oragami :)
it took me forEVER!! but oh well. it looks good.
thats it for now
ill keep you posted
yours truly
Wednesday, October 7, 2009
:@ ... !
i am in such a pissy mood.. i dont know why. i just am. so get over it.
i dont want to be in a pissy mood but hey.. i am. .... its going to be short today. i dont want to tlak. im the sort of person who suffers in silence. just me. and screw you if you try to interfere. so thats why im not talking today.
i will say one thing though.
you know how i told my bestie i liked him? well i havnt gone on since.. so in two days. not cuz im scared. but because if he wanst to talk to me about it i wont be there. and voila. so when i go on tomorrow he should be dying to talk to me. thats if he wants to. besides im studying for my science test tomorrow so excuse right there. anywayz..
ill keep you posted
yours truly
i dont want to be in a pissy mood but hey.. i am. .... its going to be short today. i dont want to tlak. im the sort of person who suffers in silence. just me. and screw you if you try to interfere. so thats why im not talking today.
i will say one thing though.
you know how i told my bestie i liked him? well i havnt gone on since.. so in two days. not cuz im scared. but because if he wanst to talk to me about it i wont be there. and voila. so when i go on tomorrow he should be dying to talk to me. thats if he wants to. besides im studying for my science test tomorrow so excuse right there. anywayz..
ill keep you posted
yours truly
Monday, October 5, 2009
urgg!
O.M.FREAKIN.G!! my parents are soooo nosey! i just want them to mind their own buisness for a second my goodness.. but whatever.... im away from them now that im at my computer. i can calm down. i vented to my bestie so im good.. for now.
im tired.. and its 7.. LOL thats sad. oh well. i think im going to read for a bit then go to bed. i know right? my posts are gettnig smaller and smaller. its only cuz theres nothing new happening. but i must post!!! itll get me in a routine :P
oh wait!!! scratch that! i just remembered :)
today i went home for lunch. as i was heading back to school when it was over there was this REALLY cute guy walking his dog and he was on his cell phone. and i mean CUTE! lol anywayz i absolutly love dogs :) and his dog was still sort of a puppy and it came up to me. so being me i started to pet it. and i looked up at him and WOW! man he was so cute! loll im not shallow just so you know. but as i was going to be late i had to leave. as i was leaving he said to whoever was on the other side of the phone hold on a sec. and said sorry and winked at me. HOLY CRAP!!! i almost went all jelly inside loll. i just said no its okay and smiled and i swear i blushed loll :D anywho yeahh.. loll :P
OH WAIT!!! one more :P
i crossed the street and was just heading into school. when i reached the other side i was following these guys. there was one really cute guy tehre. i mean cute lol. not as cute as the other guy with the dog but still cute :P anywho one of his friends turned around and said hey this guy likes you!! loll i just smiled and looked at the guy who in turn turned and smiled back :P loll obviously just a joke but still. major cute guy smiled at me!!!!! loll :) anywayz they slowed down and i passed them but as i was i swear he smiled at me again! man!!!! lucky day!!! chyea!! :D
anywayz thats it... loll :)
again ill say it. im not shallow. my bestie? i just told him. and i mean i JUST told him. hes taking it well :)
ill keep you posted
yours truly
im tired.. and its 7.. LOL thats sad. oh well. i think im going to read for a bit then go to bed. i know right? my posts are gettnig smaller and smaller. its only cuz theres nothing new happening. but i must post!!! itll get me in a routine :P
oh wait!!! scratch that! i just remembered :)
today i went home for lunch. as i was heading back to school when it was over there was this REALLY cute guy walking his dog and he was on his cell phone. and i mean CUTE! lol anywayz i absolutly love dogs :) and his dog was still sort of a puppy and it came up to me. so being me i started to pet it. and i looked up at him and WOW! man he was so cute! loll im not shallow just so you know. but as i was going to be late i had to leave. as i was leaving he said to whoever was on the other side of the phone hold on a sec. and said sorry and winked at me. HOLY CRAP!!! i almost went all jelly inside loll. i just said no its okay and smiled and i swear i blushed loll :D anywho yeahh.. loll :P
OH WAIT!!! one more :P
i crossed the street and was just heading into school. when i reached the other side i was following these guys. there was one really cute guy tehre. i mean cute lol. not as cute as the other guy with the dog but still cute :P anywho one of his friends turned around and said hey this guy likes you!! loll i just smiled and looked at the guy who in turn turned and smiled back :P loll obviously just a joke but still. major cute guy smiled at me!!!!! loll :) anywayz they slowed down and i passed them but as i was i swear he smiled at me again! man!!!! lucky day!!! chyea!! :D
anywayz thats it... loll :)
again ill say it. im not shallow. my bestie? i just told him. and i mean i JUST told him. hes taking it well :)
ill keep you posted
yours truly
Sunday, October 4, 2009
wow... sos sorry
sorry i know i havnt posted in SO long. i have a medical note though :P
ive had blurry vision ( still do.. sort of ) since wednesday. so yeah.. couldnt see... couldnt look at my computer screen without getting a migraine.. yes a migraine... not a headache :P loll
anywho not much to say since ive been bed ridden for 4 days. i went to the hospital yesterday. me and my mom left before they called my name. we were there for 2 and a half hours before we found out a lady had been there for 9 hours. so we left. i think we made a good choice. but im fine now.. sort of loll
i do have one thing to say though. in my junior school i had a best friend. and i mean BEST friend. her name is Christine. she came in grade four and moved before everyone would switch schools for grade six to mississauga. so you know how i moved schools? shes at my school!!! i couldnt believe it when she facebooked me and asked what school i went to. she said she had seen me!! holy crap i was stunned when she told me! definitly we're getting together VERY soon :D its going to be so cool to catch up.. maybe a little akward at first but who cares?! no one!! haahhahahah! :D that was a crazed laugh just so you know :P
anywayz i have clothes to fold. and my bed to make... ugh...
oh well. leaving on a happy note.. yay!! 5 new friends at this school. keeping my tons of friends from my old school. and getting together with a long time ago friend :D :) :D :) :D :)
ill keep you posted
yours truly
ive had blurry vision ( still do.. sort of ) since wednesday. so yeah.. couldnt see... couldnt look at my computer screen without getting a migraine.. yes a migraine... not a headache :P loll
anywho not much to say since ive been bed ridden for 4 days. i went to the hospital yesterday. me and my mom left before they called my name. we were there for 2 and a half hours before we found out a lady had been there for 9 hours. so we left. i think we made a good choice. but im fine now.. sort of loll
i do have one thing to say though. in my junior school i had a best friend. and i mean BEST friend. her name is Christine. she came in grade four and moved before everyone would switch schools for grade six to mississauga. so you know how i moved schools? shes at my school!!! i couldnt believe it when she facebooked me and asked what school i went to. she said she had seen me!! holy crap i was stunned when she told me! definitly we're getting together VERY soon :D its going to be so cool to catch up.. maybe a little akward at first but who cares?! no one!! haahhahahah! :D that was a crazed laugh just so you know :P
anywayz i have clothes to fold. and my bed to make... ugh...
oh well. leaving on a happy note.. yay!! 5 new friends at this school. keeping my tons of friends from my old school. and getting together with a long time ago friend :D :) :D :) :D :)
ill keep you posted
yours truly
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